It’s The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year!!!!
In August of 2001, my life as a stay at home mom drastically changed. Instead of my normal laundry, dishes, let’s color and draw pictures kind of day, I loaded the girls up into the car and dropped Rebecca off at a strange building full of strange kids, and strange adults. In August of 2001, I sent Rebecca to kindergarten. Maybe I should be more clear about exactly what that day looked like. When I say dropped off, what I really mean is dragged in hysterical crying, screaming “Please don’t leave me mommy” so loud that I could hear it from the classroom all the way to the front doors. Monday morning I will send Rebecca off to her first day of school as a senior. So many moms around me are feeling tearful and nostalgic about our kids beginning their last year as children, but I have a very different view. It’s not that I’m unemotional and cold-hearted, it’s just that I’m just so blessed that Rebecca is still here. Rebecca has been on a wild and crazy physical journey these last two years diagnosing and dealing with the ramifications of a chronic disease. We have been on loads of medicines and treatments with horrific side effects and have had to deal with chronic debilitating pain. So Monday morning when I usher her out to her car, I’m going to be smiling from ear to ear feeling blessed. There were days I thought she would never walk again, days I wondered if she would ever be a functional independent teenager, and days where I thought the gravity of the situation would send her down. Rebecca is grounded in her belief that God is her rock, her peace, and her all. She is an inspiration. Although her physical body may never be perfectly strong, her spiritual body constantly amazes me. I’ll be honest with you, I’m pretty sure that Rebecca will once again be crying as she leaves for school Monday morning. She is the kind of kid who wears her heart on her sleeve, and she is feeling nostalgic, but this mom is just going to fall to my knees and thank God that she was able to walk out to her car, drive to school, and begin this final chapter of this part of her life. This mom is celebrating this school year. This mom believes it is the most wonderful time of the year.