Hey God…Get Ready
When I was a little girl I would carefully plan the way in which I would ask my mom for things. I would make sure that she had had a good day, that she was done making dinner, and that the dishes were done. I wanted her to not be too tired, not to be headed out the door to a church meeting, and certainly not dealing with the prolific nonsense that my brother was always hurling at her. I would carefully practice my language and craftly align the words so that I didn’t sound too desperate, too needy or somehow ungrateful for something I’d already been given. I knew that I had to wait for just the right time, use just the right words, be prepared to support my request with a dissertation of information, and be ready to counter her refusal with a lesser request. I asked with the anticipation of being shut down. Sometimes my “ask” was easily granted and sometimes my “ask” was refused without further discussion.
I can’t help but wonder if I treat my prayer life in the same way that I would treat my mom. When I pray, I pray small, I prepare a list of reasons I should have what I’m asking for, and truthfully I provide God with a reason that He may tell me no. I pray apologetically. I’m praying with the small minded illusion that He may in fact need my Grace for something that He isn’t answering. God doesn’t need my grace. What He does need is my fearless faith. He needs me to pray big, to pray with the expectation that I will be answered and with insistence that He fulfills the promises that He makes to us.
I don’t need to set up the right time to ask, or set up the right circumstances. I don’t need to practice designing a tapestry of worthy words that explain my circumstances or prepare my prayer time with special music, mood lighting or any other logistical nonsense. I need to pray with faith. A faith so real that I am living my life exposed and vulnerable where I find myself in a position that if God doesn’t come through, I will be in trouble. Pure faithful prayer is about giving up my control, giving up my need to understand, and giving up my protective shell that keeps me safe from rejection. Pure faithful prayer requires that we trust our God who wants to bless us and we hold him to His promises. Pure faithful prayer is about knowing that God wants the big ask, so God today…get ready.
“Ask, and it will be given to you. Search, and you will find. Knock, and the door will be opened to you. Everyone who asks will receive. The one who searches will find. The door will be opened to the one who knocks. Suppose your son asks for bread. Which of you will give him a stone? Or suppose he asks for a fish. Which of you will give him a snake? Even though you are evil, you know how to give good gifts to your children. How much more will your Father who is in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!” Matthew 7:7-11