When I was a little girl, I was terrified of fireworks.  While there is a part of me that wants to defend my position because fireworks were notoriously unsafe in the 1980’s, but somewhere in my head, I know that I was just scared.  I would spend the 4th of July with my head buried in my mom’s shoulder just praying for it to be over.  I would squeeze my eyes shut tightly and just breathe my way through.  I was terrified of the noises.  I hated being caught off guard, and shak

When I was a little girl I used to dream of being a professional singer.  Not necessarily Beyoncé style (although in retrospect that would have been one amazing dream) but a singer nonetheless.   I wanted to perform in front of thousands of people and have a microphone where I could share stories and witty sarcastic antidotes that would make people happy.   I would wear outfits that would hug all the right curves and have hair that would flawlessly flow down my back.  Okay, m

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The other day at work during a bout of snowy Ohio weather, I found myself at work alone. The ladies I work with were all stuck in traffic, and so when the office opened, it was just me and one doctor. The first patient of the day slowly made her way up to the window. She quietly gave me her name and the very charming woman, who must have been around 80 years old, completed the check in process. Her husband was scheduled for an appointment as well, so I asked her where he

We are coming up on that magical time of year. The time of year that consumes us with sparkling lights, Christmas carols as we shop for canned ravioli, and the smell of cinnamon infused pine cones inside virtually every department store…and grocery store…and sadly, gas station. It’s the time of year that requires us to wrap gifts in shiny paper, to fein excitement of mediocre party appetizers and to have our credit cards at the ready. It’s the time where we buy, buy, buy.

I’v spent some time on a personal quest of self exploration. Which in normal people talk means, I know what I need in my life. Personally I need to keep my butt out of the refrigerator and on the treadmill. Spiritually, I need to make time to talk to God everyday about everything, and to make a conscious effort to read the bible. My mind needs me to read and to study and to gather information. And my heart needs companionship. Someone to share the moment with, to laugh

There is something soothing about the ocean. Something about the noise it makes as the waves crest and crash into the sand just lulls me into a relaxed sometimes almost catatonic state. The waves just keep coming in rhythmic formation, building, cresting then washing up to the shore, then back to the water. I love watching the ocean, feeling the balmy breeze across my face, and lounging to just get in the water. Soothing, calming, relaxing. Watching the ocean is therapeut

I have a confession to make. It’s one of those things that I do that I’m not proud of, something that I try to rationalize and reason away as “normal” or expected. Okay, here goes…I am a Facebook/Twitter/Instagram Stalker. I use social media as a form of a FBI/Homeland Security background check. Now don’t worry, I’m not stalking everyone. I’m not stalking my friends, I’m really not stalking people that I’ve known for years…okay here’s what it boils down to. I stalk my ki

I celebrated my 39th birthday by doing something that I hadn’t done in more than a decade. While I would love to tell you some great story of skydiving, bungee jumping or spending the weekend at an exotic resort, the truth is I took the opportunity to go to the eye doctor. I haven’t been to the eye doctor in 15 years and so while I was still not yet 40, I decided it was time to make an appointment. I went through each and every test full of flashing lights and pressure gaug

When I was in high school, my church youth group would have overnights. Basically, we would meet at the church on a Saturday night and take over the building until Sunday morning. We would always begin the night with cooking something in the giant kitchen, and then fighting over who had to clean up. We would play game show type games in the sanctuary so that we could use the microphones and listen to each other be even louder and more obnoxious than normal. We would have

In my years of being single and home alone without kids, I have learned how to exist in my own space pretty well. There’s a certain amount of peace and contentment that comes with learning to enjoy your own company. I can go to the movies alone, I often eat at restaurants by myself, and will often sit in front of the television and laugh out loud at what I’m watching to an empty house. There is a certain peace with being comfortable in your own space. Then there is the mo

I’ve been blogging for around a year and a half. It’s been a truly crazy year and a half too. Time full of confusion, elation, sadness, pure joy, romance, loneliness, spiritual growth, and so many life lessons I can’t begin to even name them. During that time I have gained so much insight into who I am and what I believe. I have refined the things I am looking for and have a new found appreciation for when I find something that meets my needs. I have become more in tune

While walking through Hallmark, I was overwhelmed with the choices. There were twenty good cards for him, all saying how wonderful a man he is. It took me forever to pick out just the right card. I had to find one that expressed my gratitude and obviously something to make him laugh as well. Hallmark knocked it right out of the park. After choosing a card and picking an envelope to match, I had one additional card to buy. I started reading through cards, looking closely

In high school there was a dreaded assignment that used to assassinate any chance of actual academic advancement. The assignment was simply known as the “group project”. It turns out that being assigned to work with people that you wouldn’t offer a ride in the rain, let alone share a lunch table with, doesn’t usually yield itself to positive academic experiences. As a young teenager I learned two very important lessons. #1 I don’t play well with others. And #2 I can fake

I’m not a math person. I did okay with basic math, basic accounting, algebra, trigonometry, but something happened in my head when I started calculus. Something in my brain just couldn’t make it make sense. It seems almost asinine to me to have an equation in front of you that takes hours to work on to come up with an answer that can only be classified as “right” or “wrong”. Math involves, measuring, calculating, dividing, multiplying, adding, analyzing, and ultimately comes

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